Many of you may remember that I completed 101 Bikram yoga classes in 101 days. This was, in fact, my first experience with Bikram yoga and it was great. Shortly after the challenge was over, I needed to travel to a place that didn't have a Bikram yoga studio and I took two days off. And promptly got really sick. Like two weeks of sniffling, head full of snot mess. And when you can't breathe through your nose, Bikram yoga is kinda out of the question.
When I finally got better, I knew that getting back to it would be hard. I knew I would have lost a lot of stamina and that the first 1-3 classes would be really hard. But I really didn't anticipate how hard getting back would be. I mean I lost a LOT of stamina. Basic things I just can't do any more. I need to take a lot of breaks. I'm getting dizzier now than I ever have before.
And it's all really frustrating and discouraging. I'm not sure if I'm working out some toxins or what. But it's really bumming me out that I can't do what I just did not too long ago. As I direct my focus forward towards the mirror, more often than not, I really don't like what's looking back at me. Not what's inside, but the body that houses it. Sometimes I get so upset, it makes me want to cry. It's kind of making me hate my body (more), which is the exact opposite of what yoga is supposed to do. I'm in a rut and I don't know how to get out of it.
