hey...

Woah, have I been a horrible blogger. I'll update you briefly with what I've been doing, but they're not excuses. Just... life.

I've almost reached a deal with my work situation. I don't want to say too much and jinx the whole thing. What? A woman of science believing in a jinx? The only people more superstitious than surgeons are baseball fans. And I'm both, so I'm pretty much screwed. As soon as things are finalized, I'll post the news here!

I've also been semi-depressed. I think. Not so much so that I'd need medication or anything like that, but I've been under an incredible amount of stress. As usual, most of it is self-imposed. So I graduated from residency a year ago this month, which was a whole new change in and of itself. Started a new job. That's a lot of upheaval in one year. And here I am in the same position again. And it's not fair to Daniel. Don't get me wrong, he's not complaining, but he's dealt with enough of my f*&king career development already. A decade and six figures worth of debt later and I'm still not settled. And I just want it to be done. For his sake. No one should have to go through all that, especially with someone who has dealt with the whole process as ungracefully (is that a word?) as me.

So in addition to the change/stress of a new job, I've also been trying to deal with all that and my enormous desire to settle somewhere.

Sorry this post ended up being somewhat of a downer. Guess that's why I've neglected posting, too. Cuz I knew it would turn out like this. But I'm alive, vertical, and breathing without the assistance of a machine. Which is a lot more than a lot of people can say, so I must be doing pretty well, right?