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March 2008

March 27, 2008

we're moving!

It's official. The new name of the blog will be "My Thoughtful Spot" and will be relocated to:

http://mythoughtfulspot.typepad.com

The change will take effect on or around April 10th. (The technical support people at Typepad said there may be a 36 hour lag time.) I wanted to give everyone enough time to update their blogrolls or links, or whatever. There will be no forwarding service.

In the meantime, I'm drafting all kinds of posts that I will publish as soon as we relocate to a new space on the internet. I hope to see you all there... cuz I miss you!

March 25, 2008

my decision

Thank you all so much for your input. As you may have noticed, I have not been posting very much at all. I have tons to say, but now that I've decided to make my blog more anonymous, I feel very leary about putting any new posts up.

I am currently working on where the blog will be going and how I will be notifying people about it. As soon as I have the details worked out, I'll let you know.

Again, thanks for your thoughts and insight. It helped more than you know.

March 20, 2008

state of the blog

I've been really thinking about an issue regarding my blog for a couple of months now. I just don't know which way to go. So I thought I'd bring the issue here, so all (three) of you could weigh in on the subject.

So the website of my blog makes it not anonymous. I really didn't think it out when I picked the name; I just saw a lot of other people were doing it and didn't think it would be that big of a deal.

But now that I'll be going out into the real world of medicine, I'm sure plenty of my patients will google me in attempt to find out if I've been sued or published papers or whatever. And they'll run across this blog. And learn all kinds of personal things about me. Which is kind of weird from a patient-doctor relationship perspective.

Or is it? Am I the kind of person who displays empathy and compassion enough outside of the work place that would make people say, "Yeah, she seems like a good person. I want her to be my surgeon." Could I really pass that test? And is a blog the right way to be tested in that manner?

This kind of familiarity between doctors and patients has had warning flags all over it for decades. I'm not really sure why (aside from the weird sexual relationships that develop, but I'd never do that). But there must be a good reason.

So here's the question: Do I change the name of my blog and leave a link to it up for a few months and then take it down? Or do I keep things the way they are? Any thoughts anyone has on the issue would be very greatly appreciated.

March 19, 2008

qualifying exam

I just received my instructions on how to apply to take the American Board of Surgery Qualifying Examination in August. This is the first of two tests that I need to pass to become a board certified surgeon. This first exam "qualifies" me to go on to the second, or "certifying" exam, which is oral. (We're not a very creative group, what can I say?)

The last nine years, possibly more, will be coming down to these two exams.

Woah.

March 17, 2008

sick and twisted

I was browsing an online site for card and stamping ideas, when I came across one that really hit a cord with me. The first stamped sentiment was:

"So sorry you're not feeling well"

Quickly followed by:

"Dibs on your organs."

March 12, 2008

early easter

Easter is crazy early this year, as I'm sure many have noticed. I remember when I was living in Boston it was in early April. There was still snow on the ground, and I was trying to look all cute in my springy Easter outfit with strappy shoes. Ha! Leave it to the California girl. I'm just glad I'm not back there this year!

Dawn sent me and email this morning giving more facts about this year's Easter falling so firmly in the middle of March:

Easter is always the 1st Sunday after the 1st full moon after the Spring Equinox (which is March 20). This dating of Easter is based on the lunar calendar that Hebrew people used to identify passover, which is why it moves around on our Roman calendar.

Here's the interesting info. This year is the earliest Easter any of us will ever see the rest of our lives! And only the most elderly of our population have ever seen it this early (95 years old or above!). And none of us have ever, or will ever, see it a day earlier!

Here are the facts:
-- The next time Easter will be this early (March 23) will be the year 2228 (220 years from now). The last time it was this early was 1913 (so if you're 95 or older, you are the only ones that were around for that!).

-- The next time it will be a day earlier, March 22, will be in the year 2285 (277 years from now). The last time it was on March 22 was 1818.
Now I want to know who sat around and figured this out...

March 11, 2008

muscially speaking: march 11, 2008

It has been so incredibly nice outside for the last five days or so, that I don't want to sit in front of a computer unless I have to. It's almost like I went over to the thermostat for outside and adjusted it to precisely the temperature and humidity I wanted.

So I haven't been posting very much lately...

"Sun is shining, the weather is sweet
Make you want to move your dancing feet
To the rescue, here I am
Want you to know ya, where I stand"
-- Bob Marley, Sun is Shining

March 06, 2008

musically speaking: march 6, 2008

It's fascinating to me that this group can make a song as beautiful as this one and as heavy as Knights of Cydonia. And I love them both!

Far away
This ship is taking me far away
Far away from the memories
Of the people who care if I live or die

Starlight
I will be chasing the starlight
Until the end of my life
I don't know if it's worth it anymore

Hold you in my arms
I just wanted to hold
You in my arms

My life
You electrify my life
Let's conspire to re-ignite
All the souls that would die just to feel alive

But I'll never let you go
If you promise not to fade away
Never fade away

Our hopes and expectations
Black holes and revelations
Our hopes and expectations
Black holes and revelations

-- Muse, "Starlight"

March 04, 2008

no matter what you think, it's still monday

The world gave me a huge gift yesterday. First, let me start by saying that I'm on a completely new (and chill) rotation. No more having field pages at 3am, or, worse yet, having to go into the hospital to operate on the next incoming vascular disaster. I'm on surgical oncology. And while cancer completely sucks, it almost never has to be cut out at 3am.

Mondays are very relaxed on this rotation. The only thing we have to do is round on our patients and do morning clinic. Well, we didn't have any patients and clinic was canceled! I got some administrative things done and was home by lunchtime. Studied a little, had a good 4-mile run, and got ready to see a friend whom I haven't seen in months. She's a resident, too, so there's a reason. ;-)

We went to a little beach community that has a lot of shops, restaurants, and bars in a very compact space. Which doesn't leave a lot of room for cars. I searched and searched for a parking spot along the main road but was completely unsuccessful, probably because it was dinner time. So I ventured down a dimly-lit side street, found a spot, did a masterful job at parallel parking, and walked to the restaurant.

The food was great and we had a great time catching up with each other's lives. At about 8pm, we were done, and I slowly began to walk back to my car. I got sidetracked on the way; first into a cute little lingerie store. I don't usually go for those sorts of things, but this stuff looked cute and wearable . So I browsed for a bit, grabbed a business card so I wouldn't forget about it, and headed out. Next stop was a cigar shop. Daniel occasionally smokes a cigar... maybe a few times a year. Yesterday he had a particularly difficult meeting with a client, so I thought I'd get him something that he would enjoy after his long day. Total transaction time: about 3 minutes.

I'm slowly walking back down the street to where I parked my car. I noticed the flashing yellow lights of a tow truck. "That's gotta suck," I mused in sympathy to whoever's car was being towed. As I get closer, a panic sets in. Wait. Where's my car? Oh, there it is, being loaded onto the flatbed tow truck. Fabulous. Monday found me anyway. The police were there, too, because it was a narrow one way street and they had to divert traffic where the street began.

They explained to me that I had parked directly across some woman's driveway. She called the police, and they called the tow truck. The police asked them if I had to pay anything. They said $55 "drop fee." Which I found amusing because they hadn't even loaded my car onto the flatbed, so they weren't technically doing any dropping. If anything, I was the one who would be doing the dropping... to the tune of $55.

I handed the guy $60 and he tried to play the game of "Oh, I don't have any change." Bullsh*t, dude. You've got $5. As he was making out the receipt, I went up to the house that was attached to the driveway I blocked. I knocked on the door, so I could apologize for blocking her driveway. It was one of the waitresses from the restaurant! I don't think she recognized me, and I wasn't going to say anything because I didn't want her to make a stink about the two glasses of wine I had drunk. I apologized, she said thanks, and I left.

Oh, and the parking ticket is $50 for blocking a driveway. I think I may contest it. It was a very poorly lit street and there is no way I would knowingly park in front of someone's driveway. I am a stickler for following the rules of the road, just ask my most common object of backseat driving... Daniel. There wasn't even any paint along the curb to delineate it as a driveway, which is pretty standard around here. And, this has obviously happened to her before, given the rapidity with which she called the police. That would indicate that I'm not the only one who has problems seeing her driveway on that street.

I told my friend that the next time we go out, the place has to have it's own parking lot.

March 03, 2008

literary friends

When I was younger, and before I started on this journey to becoming a surgeon, I loved to read. I always tried to get a good mix of things in my hands and would often alternate between a "classic" and "brain candy." Sometimes the classics would be difficult to get through, but I would do it becuase I thought I was somehow expanding my mind and becoming a more well-rounded person. But more often than not, the classics ended up being my favorites.

Some of the stories I was most drawn to centered around friendships. To borrow a phrase from Anne (of Anne of Green Gables), a bosom friend. Jane Eyre, Elizabeth in Pride and Prejudice, and probably dozens more that are locked away in my subconsicous all had such relationships.

For years, I've wondered why I haven't had a bosom friend. What is it about me that makes me incapable of having one?

While I am by no means a perfect friend and have character flaws that probably impede such a relationship for any significant length of time, I came to realize something last night. In today's world, opportunities for the kinds of friendships that I read about are much fewer than they were in the 1800s. Back then, you were part of a smaller community. As girls, you had adventures together. As young women, you had affairs of the heart and families to talk about. In the evening, you played cards, read, played the piano, or engaged in some witty conversation. No dozens upon dozens of hobbies to pass the time. More often than not, there were limited numbers of people from which to choose. Your contemporaries were either your friends or your mortal enemies. Similarly, the lack of ability to have friends was a marker that you were a damaged person, much like the little temptress in Great Expectations.

We don't all live within a few miles of each other. We have the opportunity to have many different kinds of interests, which not everyone likes or cares about. We also have a much wider pool of people availble for friend-making. The natural evolution of that is to have friends that fill various roles. This is my shopping friend. That is my scrapbooking friend. And so on.

Much like playing with Barbies can skew a girl's perception of what a normal body looks like, perhaps these books may have given me an erroneous impression of what friendship is like in real life. I will likey never have a literary friend like Anne did, both because of internal and external factors. The death of that possiblity makes me sad.

Edited to add a few more thoughts. After I hit save, I had a few more ideas.